Hannah and Thea

Hi today's subject crazy moments after coming home with Thea 

Everyone who has had a baby will probably have had a crazy moment or to during the first few weeks if you have read my blog you already know that on day 1 I already forgot I had Thea 🙈 So already everyone is thinking how will she cope ha ha ! 

So we get over that hurdle and start the next few days with visits and m/w appts 

I'm not 100% on what this was I have a feeling it was towards the end of the week, Dom was away for 2 weeks after I had Thea so my mum stayed at our flat to help out , 

One morning I get up and feel really panicked I have never moved so fast in my life I say moved fast my legs had begun to swell and I was brewing the infection , I run into my mums room wake her up I yell where is the other baby ?!?! My mum is thinking it's early and your yelling where is the other baby ?! She says to me what other baby ?! I repeat where is the other baby ?!?  She says to me in that mum tone ha ha, hannah - not Han hannah - you have one baby her name is Thea.

My mum must have thought I had lost my marbles I say I do ?! Just one ?!  She says yes hannah one baby and that's Thea! To make it even more silly she points out that I'm holding Thea ! In my panic I had picked Thea up and run in to my mums room ?! I don't even remember picking her up! I was convinced I had 2 babies ?! Why who knows so weird ! I still laugh about this because I was genuinely confused about having had Thea and why I didn't have another baby

I would like to think it was lack of sleep strong Pain killers that  caused that random comfusion for me ha ha ! Also glad i only had one 😂 

The second thing to happen which I still laugh about isn't that bad but I found it so funny I nearly burst a stitch laughing when I finally realised what had happened 

Thea must have been maybe 3 days old and during the mid wife appts they ask many questions about your health and your toilet habits after birth as it can impact how often you 💩 Now I don't go around asking people how frequently they 💩 So the midwife asks  me have you 💩 Since having Thea I say no - she seems surprised because also normally they have to have had a 💩 And urine check off before you leave the hospital now remember I refuse to walk let alone do a urine sample so getting a 💩Outta me was never going to happen ! 

Now sorry TMI i didn't go for 3 days so she asked what I ate for breakfast so i say coco pops 😳

Yeh you read that at 28 I eat coco pops for breakfast ! She replies right no have something else something that will help you go - fine I have my oats from my diabetes diets I will give up my coco pops and see .
So to skip over a day passes and I drink more water and eat better.
To be upfront here having your first 💩 Since having a baby I can only discribe as feeling like your about to give birth again - I know I know sorry ewwww
I'm so happy I did it that I randomly decided to tell my mum ?! As I condisdered it a good step ha ha and also Thea had been constipated and hadn't done anything for a few days and weirdly the same day she also did ha ha so I text something along the lines of this
" hi guess what I did a poop and so did Thea to 🙏 " and then something about free nappy time as to why I thought Thea had pooped 😂 I thought it had maybe been the fresh air 🙈 I then randomly go on about how thankful I was to have had my mums help during everything.
So I'm feeling pretty good and I get no reply so after my mum gets back to mine hours later I ask why didn't you reply ha ha I was so happy to have sorted the issue so the midwife will let me eat coco pops again 😂 My mum then says what text I haven't had one ?!?!
Oooobhhhhhh yeh I now realised that I have two mums saved into my phone oh no really whhyyyyy I grab my phone and look at the mum number more closely yep you guessed it I've only gone and bloody sent it to Doms. Mum 😂😱🙈😳😅
Now luckily for me doms mum is very laid back and having had kids she knew how this was and after I realised I sent a text saying sorry about the 💩 Message I thought it was my mums number
( Who sends their mum in law a text about having been to the loo ha ha )
Your own mum yeh she knows you well enough your mum in law maybe not as much !
Doms mum text back and said it's ok I thought it was for someone else but then adds I know how that feels having had 3 kids !! 😅🙈
Embarrassing for me but funny !
So that's a few of the silly things that happened in my first week !
Maybe they are funnier to me than anyone else 😂
Thanks for reading hope to write soon
Hannah and Thea xx

Move over Moses basket there is a new box in town...well in the Hudson house anyway! 

you let your baby sleep in a cardboard box?!

my answer is yes! and why?! because its such a good product and works so well and is great for small flats and tight storage, so here is what i think about the British baby box!

For 75 years, the Finnish Government have been giving its expectant parents a box containing a starter kit which can be used, most importantly, as a bed. Research suggests it has helped Finland achieve one of the world’s lowest infant mortality rates.

(TAKEN FROM THE BRITISH BABY BOX WEB PAGE)

www.britishbabybox.com

the British baby box company is the only one in the uk! and i think they have made a fab product that is safe, stylish and space saving and re - usable.

I had heard of the box idea but went for a Moses first which Thea liked for a while but then hated the mattress was soft and i was finding with her exzema adding to the issue she wasn't sleeping and the edges of the basket had become bent and kept needing re adjusting, our friend Sarah had mentioned the box to me before Thea was born but i had already got the Moses and like most first time mums i felt like it was tried and tested by our mums so it must work and Thea would like it!

the idea of the baby feeling more secure in a small space i think is also true Thea slept better in the box which has higher edges and was less wriggly still itching her skin but not as much in turn giving me a little more sleep! after months of co - sleeping or struggling with the Moses it was worth a go!

so to begin here is why i love it ! 

It doubles as a changing area using the lid and mattress handy if you don't have a changing table or you need a quick answer to changing nappies without risking the floor if any accidents happen.

The print is lovely and matches Thea's room - fluke but really adds to the likeability as it looks lovely and it has life after baby, you can use it as a stylish storage box or keep sake box again the print means i can have it out and it fits in well

The sheets are organic and fitted for the mattress - great one of the reasons i wanted this box is for Thea's skin - bad baby eczema 

Its so easy to move around compared to the Moses basket - again great for small flats as it takes up less space, 

  

 Another reason i really love this box it doubles as a play pen - obvs not when Thea is bigger but great for pre - nap playing 

 Thea is a baby that loves to sleep with her nose squished to the side of anything - not great in the Moses the side has a sheet that blocks her nose,maybe that's new parent fear but i found myself checking on her far more in the Moses than the box 

I would like to thank our friend Sarah for gifting this to us it was really kind of you and has really helped! i would recommend a box to any new parent! and if it wasn't for Sarah suggesting it after a conversation we had about Thea's sleeping and bad skin and then knowing the founder i wouldn't have had the chance to try this out!

thanks for reading this is a quick post written in a nap break! i love this box so much i felt the need to skip rest and the washing and write about it - it must be good!

hope to write again soon 

Hannah and Thea x

p.s if your reading this and your a new parent or expecting a little one i will have a blog about maternity and new born photos taken by a lovely friend of ours! something to add to your baby box if you use it as a memory box!
head on over to her page and get a discount on photos using "babythea"
https://www.facebook.com/ewahighland.photography/

So we have all been on Pinterest dreaming of having hair like the pics !

I could spend days looking at all the inspirational pics so many to look at unicorn,mermaid, ombre, silver , short , long, wavy !

I've always messed around with my hair since I did hairdressing but after I left and the world of work doesn't love that you have green hair ! I stopped colouring my hair and for the last five years I've done nothing other than the occasional dip dye  or all over wash in wash out.

I realised being on maternity leave was the best time to just not be boring and have a change !

So after weeks of pinning and gazing at all the amazing things outthere I decided that the hair bleach I had for ages sitting doing nothing would be the starting point for doing something new !

I asked a friend of mine on Facebook who has amazing blue /turquoise hair what brand she used as ones I had tried just didn't cut it , to be fair I hadn't bleached my hair so nothing would ever look that good or bright. So on her advice I got directions in 4 colours at the time of ordering I was feeling brave I ordered turquoise , lilac , violet and pastel pink.

It arrived so quickly that I ended up on a random day just getting the bleach  out being brave and going for it if all goes wrong I can just colour over it ! Luckily for me the few times I have messed up by hair my husband Dom has always helped me fix it by helping colour over it or colour removing it for me in the places I can't see or reach ha ha !

So out comes the bleach , Doms on baby duty ! I go for  it but mix it with conditioner so that the bleach isn't as thick or as strong it goes ok lifts my hair fairly well maybe a little to well at the roots but that's to be expected !

From the front I'm thinking all looks ok but as I see more of the back I can see that actually no it's patchy and corn yellow weirdly I don't freak out i re bleach it in places and then wash it out to see basically the same thing I  slap on conditioner scare Dom walking around with the corn yellow hair and end up just leaving it over night !

The following day I realise I can't leave the house so ask my sister to get me a blonde hair colour and some purple shampoo I continue to have conditioner in my hair until she arrives ! So we put the blonde on wash it off it's not bad but not great so we apply purple shampoo it really helps but it's still not perfect as now the roots are purple and the rest is an ok colour kinda blue / grey

The following day I can't decide if I should give up or continue I decide as I've done the hardest part to continue ! I go for the purple colour but again mix it with conditioner so when I wash it out it barely shows ! Again i colour over  it with the purple I'm running out so I'm a tad nervous  ! This time it holds but Now it's patchy ! So I have to add in pink to the mix and go again !

Finally it looks ok enough to leave the house the next day and I really like it and feel happy that I've been brave !

The only down side is the colour comes  out so fast barely lasted a week and I've been walking around now for a week with blue / grey which is ok it's just patchy but I'm going to stick with it and go blue and then prob back to lilac ! Why not I'm not working for a while longer ! Maybe I can try an ombré unicorn style to !

Hope this random post inspires some hair changes! If I can do it anyone can do it at home ! I'm all for home hair ! Spesh on a budget as tight as maternity pay ! Excuse the pictures of the hair journey I had to document what it looked like !

Products used

Directions hair colour in violet , lilac and pink - amazon fab deal 4 pots for 12 pounds

L'Oréal silver shampoo - best I've found it's got a huge amount of pigment

Creme peroxide in 20 vol - I never use higher volume ! - higher maybe would have lifted it more and then it would have been less yellow maybe ?!

Blue powder bleach

Everything was from Sally's beauty supply other than the directions hair colour !

Hope to write again soon

Hannah and Thea !

Hi ,

So you've read the mega long birth story ,the next few days were funny and I look back and laugh somehow again in the first week of having thea I manage to have a few complications eventually having to go back into the maternity triage to get sorted ! But this blog is hopefully shorter this is about the first few days!

My sister comes early to see us ! It's the first time I've seen my sister since she left just before the Epi experience so I fill her in about my first night with thea it was great midwife was amazing and helped me so much and I didn't need to leave the bed for anything or change a nappy ! The Epi had numbed my pain all night so I felt good well I felt tired but not in pain.

We spend the day talking and taking pics  but slowly I start to turn into someone I don't recognise A horrible mean annoying diva ! By the time visiting hours are over I had demanded a few things

 First thing I refuse to have my catheter taken out and when I finally agree the nurse accidentally sprays the other nurse with my pee 🙈  I demand pain killers stronger than what they give you normally I end up having morphine ?!?! I demand my pressure socks to be taken off - m/w agrees  on the term I have them on later ( i don't and have major complications later for that ) that was just to start , I asked my sister to stay over with me and my demands get worse in the night I have an allergic  reaction to my c section dressing so ask for it to be taken off again m/w agrees I think she was still angry from the fan ( I wasn't allowed one due to low blood sugar the cold air wasn't to touch thea as she was at risk ?! I kept putting it on and m/w kept turning it off )  as I'm standing up out of bed which I cried doing - the m/w was small and had to lift me with my sister as I said I couldn't do it myself 😳 , she rips the dressing off and then without warning injects me in the stomach which was sore flabby and painful with a heparin shot ! I was not expecting it and shouted as it hurt surprised no one said anything the ward was full !

After the injection I cry and again demand the fan I then spend some time in bed being quiet , my sister was a massive help she got me walking around in the night and got me to do a urine sample so that I could go home the following day without her I would have stayed in bed not walking and not doing the sample , she was so kind and didn't yell at me when I cried everytime I went to walk !

The following day thea gets checked and we get the all clear To go home ! being told you can go home is the best feeling ever , the m/w who discharged us was the m/w who induced me she was lovely and even gave me a weeks supply of the disposable undies that ended up saving me the week after ! Before we could go they have to check the size and position of your uterus - i know what ?! That's a thing they have to check - no one asked me anything about taking care of thea but they had to check my uterus 😂 It was the size of a football ?! She said that was perfect considering the size it was before - I took it as a compliment !

We leave with our red book thea and bags my dad drives us back yes it's only a min away from home but the drive was handy ! We get back  I get out of the car and completely forget about thea !!!  My dad reminds me she's there - yep day 1 and I already question my ability !

The rest of the day is a blur and we have one free day before the m/w visits and that is just as crazy as everything else one rolls me off my sofa As she thinks I'm getting up wrong 😑 Then she tells me my section is wonky - thanks just what I want to hear I feel fat and ugly already I don't need that ! , the same one goes into the bathroom and comes out asking about toothpaste 🙈 Another opens up my chest of drawers in Thea's room and says about how i organised the nappies all in a line - high five they still are neat in a line !! 2 of the visits go well one Irish lady did both tho she did complain about the formula machine but that's ok she was doing her job and had been told to advise against it !

On all visits my c section was checked and i kept being told it was fine no issue , I had swelling all that week in my legs it was very bad and I couldn't walk bend my legs or move my ankles I kept being told all was fine , by day 4 I was emotional tired and fed up I booked to see my gp he gave me advice and tablets for my legs but I ended up not taking them and using pressure socks that took 4 people to put on at the start and then by the end off the week just my sisters husband ! And eventually my mum ! The swelling was caused by the fluid used in the c section amd is common but not often to the extent I got it typical !  By day 6 I kept telling my mum I felt terrible unwell I didn't want to get out of bed I struggled to do anything something else was wrong we put it down to my legs and my body adjusting , day 7 I had cried every day I felt silly for not being able to shower , go to the loo , walk sit or do anything without help , my mum invited me over for dinner with thea my first outing - I cried I couldn't fit in my jeans due to my legs my stomach hurt from all the injections I still felt unwell, we went for dinner so good to feel fresh air ! We eat and my older sister takes pics of thea as I reach down to change Thea's nappy I feel something down my leg hmm that's not right it was blood From my c section a stitch had burst it was inflamed and weepy  so much for being ok ! my mum says wait and see how it goes for the afternoon , it doesn't stop bleeding and it hurts I ended up back in hospital the last thing the icing on the cake for My birth story

I get into triage and I get left for 4 hours bleeding and the m/w on duty congratulates me for coming in before the infection got any worse , takes a sanitary towel from an open packet on the window ledge and covers my c -section and leaves to go on holiday !!!!! 4 hours and I get seen by a doctor who doesn't do anything but drain the section and cover the area , I then wait 1 hour to get cleaned up again by m/w and then another stretch of time to get dressings to take home !!!

thank goodness dom will be home for the next 4 weeks to help out!

Wow another long one but that's the first week and the birth covered the next blogs will be fun ! I've got hair ones and more baby related ones ! Much shorter ha ha

Thanks for reading hope to write again soon !

Hannah and Thea x

Hi ! My first blog what's taken me so long ?! As a huge fan of Insta and Facebook I don't know why I've never written a blog ! Maybe it's because I've never had a subject that I felt was worth writing about ?!

This blog is just casual  and completely relaxed probably will be covered in spelling mistakes and bad grammar ! Also new to this I still have to figure out how to share pics - yes I know I sound stupid your sat there probably thinking gosh how can she not know how to do that ! If I post more blogs or if your reading this and you know me well enough you will know I'm as silly as you can get !

Wow long speech to start ! Prob bored you already , so I'm going to share my labour and delivery with anyone who wants to read it ! As a first time mum there will be things in here that may raise a seasoned mums eyebrow !

So to begin I'm a first time mum so pregnancy also was new and scary ! For someone who is relatively healthy I managed to get everything under the sun wrong with me during my pregnancy, and you know that glow everyone talks about where was that and why didn't I get it ?!?! I gained 3 stone , had pregnancy tachycardia and gestational diabetes and extra amniotic fluid , How do some ladies look slim and presentable during pregnancy I was high fiving the air if I managed to squish into my jeans and have the energy to put makeup on.

To start all my health issues lead to being induced a week early - I had to beg to be induced even with all the extra fluid and diabetes I wasnt allowed to have Thea any earlier Understandable the longer the baby is in the healthier they come out - I was desperate to have her before Dom left for a work trip to America.

Typically the day I had my final growth scan my usual endo dr had left to go on to maternity leave ! Leaving a very grumpy dr who had been left with no staff all day and hadn't eaten and had to get home to her 2 children the clinic had closed and we were seen  locked in as everyone had left ! , she agreed to induce me at 38+6 days which brings us to March 31st 2016 !!! We had until April 3 early hours to get Thea here before Dom left !

Induction day !!!!

I've never felt so nervous in all my life the feeling of leaving home for the last time with no baby was very strange one I won't forget ! Naturally I had a final bump pic I wanted to remember everything about the day ! We left home which is 2 seconds from the hospital our flat looks into the maternity ward ! We arrive to a very busy ward at first I was worried that it was busy and grumpy I wanted to get going and get started - we waited watching people being called in my hands were sweaty and I was feeling nervous hannah Hudson oh god that's my name that's me !!! Dom takes the bags and we head for a room , the midwife says let's check you into your room ... My room ?! She repeats yes your room ?! Praise the room gods it was so busy the last lady to be called took the last bed on the ward !!!

Well that was a surprise a room free of charge ! Not complaining little did I know I would need my own room for what was to happen!

We get checked in the induction was started and my nervous slowly left and I felt ok no pain just tightenings small contractions.

Later in the day Liz visits and so does Rebecca and nothing much happens just still small contractions

Im feeling positive and ok so when everyone says goodbye I didn't feel nervous like I thought I was happy to lay in bed on the monitor and watch some pll , I was sad that Dom couldn't stay there is a strict no man policy but as nothing was happening would have been pointless !

As the night progresses I have to permanently stay on the monitor my heart rate increases and so does Thea's the night staff keep coming in which is routine doesn't help that I had to keep buzzing to go to the loo as I had to drink many glasses of water so I didn't have to have a drip put in early to hydrate Thea ! Early hours I give in I ask for pain killers which I continue to have every 4 hours , I get some sleep and the morning rolls around .

yay a midwife comes in and says she will check for progress ! I'm feeling more painful contractions and had my first of many small silent cries in bed 🙈

Midwife says nothing is happening I'm not dilated and my waters won't break any time soon , I get upset she says I have to be left for 6 hours - 6 hours Dom leaves on the 3rd !!! I want to cry but suck it up and ask for more pain relief instead !

The first of a few un - expected things happen, the midwife leaves the room I get up bend over the bed to reach probably a sweet I can't actually remember what I was reaching for and GUSH now you know how they show it in the movies and everyone says that won't happen ! That's what happened GUSH like a huge water fall sorry only way I can discribe it ! Huge amount of water I was soaked the

floor was soaked so embarrassing ! The first of a few times my dignity left the room!

Wow ok in the few mins I was told nothing was happening my waters break ! This was the only time

I felt super scared I was shaking Dom looks over the bed and goes oh that's tiny nothing there I said are you kidding look at the floor he walks around the bed and says oh yeh I see now ! He gets the midwife she comes back in and says ok we shall check you again, she checks me again and I've dilated to 2 cm yipee !!

So no one told me your water continuously breaks until the baby comes ?! Yeh continuously if you don't have extra fluid you prob won't notice it happening , well not the case for me obviously I couldn't be normal I go on to have 3 major breaks and have to have the bed and floor cleaned so embrassing !

During this time the midwife had checked me and had noticed that something was wrong she said she thought she could feel the baby's hand Infront of her head like superman - she went on to say that some babies can be born like that but to be safe she wanted a second opnion she requests a dr to come and see us.

Maybe an hour goes by and the dr comes in explains she wants to check me and why , she checks me and my dignity leaves the room again she goes to examine me and my waters break massively again ALL over her and the bed and the floor eewwwww , I want to cry she was completely still and just said don't worry it happens all the time - I swear she was just saying that - guys it was up her arms and all over her scrubs ! She offers me gas and air which I don't have because I wasn't sure if I would feel pain during the examination or not it wasn't  pleasant but it wasn't to painful she had to check all angles of Thea's position to determine what was going on !

She explains that Thea is in the wrong position but there would be every chance she would move with time and stronger contractions so she leaves us and says we will be seen again later in the day , hours go by the pain increases and I want more than painkillers but refuse the gas and air as I don't want to be sick ?!! Yeh looking back what an idiot should have used the gas and air would have helped ! The ward is so busy there are ladies giving birth in triage and you can hear screaming from the corridors I'm getting more and more annoyed with pain and the midwives began to avoid wanting to check me and kept saying I wasn't progressing even tho I was having strong contractions , around 6 pm I being to laugh and joke with a midwife but I wasn't really feeling that on the inside and between her coming and and going saying I wasn't progressing I was crying silently on the bed the machine was hurting which was adding to my pain and I was so grumpy I kept saying I wanted to go home! I gave in and had some gas and air which was amazing I felt silly for not wanting  it earlier !

Around 7 pm the midwife sees me cry and after my mum went to talk to her to say although I was

joking around I was in pain ! She checks me against her judgment saying I'm prob not that far and to

be fair I wasn't I was 5 cm ! I cried in joy because you know what that means ?!?! Labour ward I can go to labour ward and have an epidural yayyyyyyy !!!!!!

I get a burst of happiness and even walk to the wheelchair to go to the labour ward ! I cry with happiness all the way down to the room I repeatedly said thank you to the midwife I think she thought I was mental but I was happy !

This is where is went down hill we get to the room I get drips and a shiny new fresh midwife ! Great it's happening Thea will be here soon ...... i request and epidural things seems to be moving they ask me to sign the form to say I read and understood I sign it not reading it thinking fab will be done soon, the midwife who was just so lovely hugs my mum and says that she wishes her daughter would have triplets 😂 No idea how they got into the triplet convo I was on gas and air like it was going out of fashion !

Hours pass and things seem to not be happening no Epi nothing no sign of Thea , a dr appears it's the end of her shift she says she will examine me yay maybe that will shed some light , nope big fat no , she explains Thea is still in the wrong position , but says don't worry she will move and will be fine and she left , hours pass again i start to silently cry in bed my midwife is breathing with me when I have a contraction , she sees I'm upset she grabs my hand and looks me in the eyes and she says no ! No more tears ok , no more crying , that epidural trolley has been sat here for hours and no one has come - the lady next door kept coming in asking where everyone was and could she have her Epi before mine !!!

My midwife says she going to get someone for me enough is enough ! Phew someone is taking action here ! At last she comes back angry and says you know where they are the epidural team were caught up in theatre but they were having a cup of tea .... Having a cup of tea !!!! She was angry as she has asked a number of times for someone to come and they were drinking tea ! Ok have a break but maybe after you have done my Epi and the lady next door 😂

So finally after some more tears and heavy breathing from a hypno birthing book I had read and loved a tiny epidural lady comes in she's smaller than me she says ok let's start oh lord I'm now nervous as much as I want it in terrified I read horror stories and had had a scary convo earlier in pregnancy with a nurse about how it can paralyse you if it's done wrong 😱 I was getting flustered as she raised the bed to its max height she could reach !!! I was on the gas and air continuously which isn't really allowed but I had to do something to calm my nerves ! - I grab my mums hand so hard Dom takes a seat behind her I can see him and I focus thinking I can do this last part and all will be ok ! , the lady asks for anasthetic ,ok yep she explains it will numb the area my heart starts to race im still on gas and air she explains if I have a contraction I'm to tell her - I don't the fear gets to me and I end up losing it after she asks 2 more times for anasthetic - that's 3 lots she's had and she now sounds

flustered, i start to feel faint I've over done the gas and air , Thea's heart beat goes missing the beeping of the machines stop , I really start to panic my midwife is saying to the lady if you don't get it this time can you leave and come back ! She comes to stand Infront of me Dom has his face in his hands I feel really flustered , she tells me to calm down relax and to stop moving - I didn't notice in my meltdown that I was moving my arm ! My midwife holds my arm leans over and says in my ear  calm down it will be ok this lady is driving me mental I don't know why she can't get the Epi in while she was doing this she was searching for Thea's heart beat still nothing - she tells the lady to hurry up as she can't find Thea's heart beat this was due to the way the lady had me leaning over a pillow !

At last she gets it in there is a sense of calm in the room during the Epi the consultant had come in and left seeing that things were not going well ! He returns lightens the mood making us laugh he tries to catch my waters in his hands and runs to the sink with his hands together ! He explains during my examination that a natural birth will not happen I've stopped dilating and thea is very much in the wrong position - he said that he has his finger in Thea's mouth !!!! What ewww no one wants to hear that ! His point about the fact he could get his finger in her mouth was that she was in a full facial presentation position - rare - as she was face up also meaning her head and neck were fully extended if they tried to move her it could damage her neck and face , also as I had extra fluid chances of the cord slipping Infront of her could add to complicate the delivery.

If she had been face down a brow presentation things could have been easier and a natural delivery possible , so he says she is immediately to be delivered by a emergency c section.

We get taken to the theatre , the funny thing about this looking back the person who administers your Epi stays with you during the section , so the lady was with me in the c section the entire time I'm thinking how much I dislike her !

The curtain goes up so I can't see anything they ask if I would like to see thea over the curtain I say no as if I saw my insides I would freak out ! The section is started and I hear a few funny comments , the trainee asks the consultant what he should do with my bladder 😱 I say to Dom did you just hear that !!! I had never thought about what they need to remove to get the baby out  it does make me nervous but I quickly forget about it as I then manage to annoy everyone by asking repeatedly for water !

Feels like an age has passed thea is born and Dom goes to see her we don't hear a cry she was very quiet ! I hear the midwife say she looks like Dom ! I want to cry with happiness ! She's here and she's safe ! The midwife explains that thea is swollen so much so one of the nurses asked if she had eyes !!! Her face was very swollen , Dom brings her over to show me.

The first thing I say is she's not mine she has dark hair the room bursts out laughing your the only one in here she's yours the midwife says !

we get taken to recovery for 2 hours my blood sugars need to be checked and my insulin and fluid drips   are kept in so the midwife has to un tangle the wires for me to hold thea for the first time at 2  hours old thea goes under my gown and she's so warm and cute ! Still swollen and bloody ! My heart melts  I didn't think I was maternal but there is no feeling like holding your baby for the first time !

She starts to snore making everyone laugh as it's so loud I ask Dom for our first family pic I was high on drugs and makeup free and tired ha ha the pic is terrible but I look back and laugh !

We finally leave recovery to see my mum and get taken to the ward I'm nervous to be left alone with thea but by the time we get sorted it's 3 am and visiting time starts at 8 am so not long ! Thea is put into the little bed thing and is put in her first outfit the cutest baby grow ! My mum holds thea and Dom has to leave  after the nurses ask him to lift me onto the new bed! so they use doms man muscles but he is then immediately told to leave not the best ! , i settle into bed to have my first night as a mum !

Now my first night is eventful and I think another post will needed to be written as this is so long ha ha , my second night in hospital is even funnier !

Thank you for taking a day out to read this mega long post !

 for the next 4 weeks dom is home to help me and help out with thea and so our adventure begins

Hope to write again soon

Hannah and thea !